In an effort to get back onto a fully Paleo diet to keep the skin healthy and not freaked out, I have decided that I am trying an experiment.
I have eaten Paleo in the past, sometimes for a good many months at a time, and I always feel great eating with that way of life. HOWEVER... I tend to weigh myself 1-2 times a week and when I find I'm not making the progress I think I should, I get frustrated and my food addict comes up to convince me why veering off the Paleo path is such a good idea. Especially when I'm not getting the results I expect.
So I'm detaching myself from the outcome and I have hid my scale for the entire month of March. I will not weigh myself for one month. I put the scale away last night in fact. I already totally miss it... the spot where it normally sits in the bathroom taunting me with the fear of GAINING weight in the next month.
I have meals planned for the week, I have SCHEDULED workout times for next week that I have committed to doing. And I will do this for one month before I torture myself with the scale. I'll focus on how I FEEL... on if my eczema is clearing up and not re-sprouting, on if my pants are fitting looser.
Wish me luck! :)
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Hump Day Randomisms
How long as it been since you saw THAT somewhere? Back in the day, I'd do my randomisms every hump day! It's good to be putting one out there again after so long! YAY!
So it's official... no grains, beans, gluten, yeast, sugar, dairy and preferable to my MD, no alcohol, too. I've excema all over and I must go to a hard core Paleo diet to keep it in check. That and a healthy dose of cortisone to my tushy today will *fingers crossed* keep it at bay. I swear, I'm only 34 and I'm falling apart! My skin is so angry, I pulled my IT band somehow and I have a touch of rotator cuff tendonitis. Awesome.
HOWEVER... I've scheduled five days of exercise next week! 2 at home work outs, 2 weight classes and 1 cycle class. I bought myself some padded bike shorts to hopefully keep chaffing and bruised butt bone to a minimum. I'm so out of shape so I know the cycle class will kill me, but... I can go slow and go at my own pace and build up from there.
I spend SO MUCH time thinking about weight loss and my relationship with food. It's wasteful, really, all the energy and time I spend. And I am selective in what I feel is "meant to be" but... I have to say... with the skin being the largest organ we have and if going back to Paleo is what I need to keep me healthy, then I feel that my skin is telling me something. It is telling me that I need to focus less on the end result and more on nourishing my body. When I've done Paleo before, it's always been with a weight loss goal in mind and when that doesn't work out at the rate I feel it should, I get frustrated and comfort myself with food. (Alas, my relationship with food is complicated!) But... I'm going to hide my scale the entire month of March and delve back into Paleo cooking, Paleo dining out, Paleo everything b/c if that is going to keep my rash at bay, I will be happier. No matter how much I want that cookie or cupcake or piece of toast or rice with my Thai food. I'm going to spend one whole month not weighing myself and working out every week and eating the way my body needs and make it about health and not about weight. Wish me luck.
My love is leaving for training in Alaska soon for two weeks. I've not been two weeks apart from him in over 3 years. Not even during our first year when we were "off and on" did I go a full two weeks without seeing him. I'm happy for him, nervous for him and scared and sad and excited all at the same time. The organization he's going to go to work for is so disorganized that it's literally making me crazy. I take many deep breaths and steps back. K is also not an organized person so maybe he can handle it. And it's his stuff anyway. It's been a real lesson in letting go control of someone else's stuff and letting them manage their life for themselves instead of assuming they need me to manage it for them. ha!
On that note, I have total "last meal" mentality and am going to go get sushi take out tonight and going to catch up on my shows on OnDemand. Girls, Once Upon a Time, Nashville and SMASH! Yeah!
Happy Hump Day everyone!
~L
So it's official... no grains, beans, gluten, yeast, sugar, dairy and preferable to my MD, no alcohol, too. I've excema all over and I must go to a hard core Paleo diet to keep it in check. That and a healthy dose of cortisone to my tushy today will *fingers crossed* keep it at bay. I swear, I'm only 34 and I'm falling apart! My skin is so angry, I pulled my IT band somehow and I have a touch of rotator cuff tendonitis. Awesome.
HOWEVER... I've scheduled five days of exercise next week! 2 at home work outs, 2 weight classes and 1 cycle class. I bought myself some padded bike shorts to hopefully keep chaffing and bruised butt bone to a minimum. I'm so out of shape so I know the cycle class will kill me, but... I can go slow and go at my own pace and build up from there.
I spend SO MUCH time thinking about weight loss and my relationship with food. It's wasteful, really, all the energy and time I spend. And I am selective in what I feel is "meant to be" but... I have to say... with the skin being the largest organ we have and if going back to Paleo is what I need to keep me healthy, then I feel that my skin is telling me something. It is telling me that I need to focus less on the end result and more on nourishing my body. When I've done Paleo before, it's always been with a weight loss goal in mind and when that doesn't work out at the rate I feel it should, I get frustrated and comfort myself with food. (Alas, my relationship with food is complicated!) But... I'm going to hide my scale the entire month of March and delve back into Paleo cooking, Paleo dining out, Paleo everything b/c if that is going to keep my rash at bay, I will be happier. No matter how much I want that cookie or cupcake or piece of toast or rice with my Thai food. I'm going to spend one whole month not weighing myself and working out every week and eating the way my body needs and make it about health and not about weight. Wish me luck.
My love is leaving for training in Alaska soon for two weeks. I've not been two weeks apart from him in over 3 years. Not even during our first year when we were "off and on" did I go a full two weeks without seeing him. I'm happy for him, nervous for him and scared and sad and excited all at the same time. The organization he's going to go to work for is so disorganized that it's literally making me crazy. I take many deep breaths and steps back. K is also not an organized person so maybe he can handle it. And it's his stuff anyway. It's been a real lesson in letting go control of someone else's stuff and letting them manage their life for themselves instead of assuming they need me to manage it for them. ha!
On that note, I have total "last meal" mentality and am going to go get sushi take out tonight and going to catch up on my shows on OnDemand. Girls, Once Upon a Time, Nashville and SMASH! Yeah!
Happy Hump Day everyone!
~L
Friday, February 22, 2013
Testing Testing *tap tap tap*
Is there anybody out there? I have all but neglected not just you, but the inner workings of myself as well. My ability to express myself and feel a little heard.
I've been pondering the thought of coming back to blogging for some time now and I think it's time. There are changes afoot in Flye-land and I need an outlet and support. And frankly, I'll have the time. ;-)
So just a little note to keep an eye out. I'm coming back!
TGIF, friends!
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Change in perspective
I felt so great last summer after having lost 35 pounds and I haven't gotten out of my mourning of having gained it all back so quickly during the winter. I'm having so much difficulty staying motivated when it comes to eating well. I did a 15 day juice cleanse and a 4 week Whole30 Paleo diet at the beginning of the year and ended up losing 4 pounds when it was all said and done. Needless to say I'm discouraged. I'm working out 2-3 x a day, eating 1600-2000 calories (sometimes you need more when you're burning so much more) but I'm still having days where I drink too much or go 5 (or 10) bites past full. Where I pick up a bag of MMs instead of an apple when I feel like something sweet.
I was told by my most recent manager yesterday that I was perfect and fantastic and successful. And I let that wash over me until I went to a body pump class at my new gym and all I could see was my stomach rolls. I AM successful. I have a great life. I keep thinking to myself... I'm going to be 65 years old and I'm going to so regret having wasted so much time being unhappy with myself. But I don't know how to change that. I know there is a lot of fat acceptance stuff I could read (and have) but the truth is, I want to lose weight. I don't need to be a size 4. I just want to be a size 14. I want to be an XL. I just want to be able to shop at Old Navy or Target. That's not a huge goal.
But I am so angry at how hard it is for me to get there. I have tried (almost) everything. And I'm not a gimmick girl so I don't subscribe to this diet pill or that new diet. I just try to cut calories by cutting junk and eating CLEAN and expending energy in exercising. My body seems resistant to traditional methods. Methods that work for everyone else... simple mathematics, hasn't been working for me. And I'm frustrated. I'm on the line of not wanting to waste my energy being unhappy with myself and not appreciating all the good things about my life and wanting so much to change.
I need a change in perspective. A way to be happy with myself and who I am and all the things I have to offer (body size included) and still make progress toward improvement and weight loss. I can't help the physical challenges I have with losing weight, but I can just keep pushing forward and try not to be so hard on myself. Not sure how that perspective shift is going to happen, but.... that's where I'm at these days.
I was told by my most recent manager yesterday that I was perfect and fantastic and successful. And I let that wash over me until I went to a body pump class at my new gym and all I could see was my stomach rolls. I AM successful. I have a great life. I keep thinking to myself... I'm going to be 65 years old and I'm going to so regret having wasted so much time being unhappy with myself. But I don't know how to change that. I know there is a lot of fat acceptance stuff I could read (and have) but the truth is, I want to lose weight. I don't need to be a size 4. I just want to be a size 14. I want to be an XL. I just want to be able to shop at Old Navy or Target. That's not a huge goal.
But I am so angry at how hard it is for me to get there. I have tried (almost) everything. And I'm not a gimmick girl so I don't subscribe to this diet pill or that new diet. I just try to cut calories by cutting junk and eating CLEAN and expending energy in exercising. My body seems resistant to traditional methods. Methods that work for everyone else... simple mathematics, hasn't been working for me. And I'm frustrated. I'm on the line of not wanting to waste my energy being unhappy with myself and not appreciating all the good things about my life and wanting so much to change.
I need a change in perspective. A way to be happy with myself and who I am and all the things I have to offer (body size included) and still make progress toward improvement and weight loss. I can't help the physical challenges I have with losing weight, but I can just keep pushing forward and try not to be so hard on myself. Not sure how that perspective shift is going to happen, but.... that's where I'm at these days.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Catching up
I know I haven't been around here much. I'm sure you've missed me. ;-)
This year has been a wild ride. And here is my confession. I lost 60 pounds and gained back 40. All in a year. I can honestly say I've never gained or lost that much so fast. After my 35 pound HCG loss, something someone said triggered me and I went somewhere in my head and with my diet/eating that I hadn't been in many years. And I just kept going. I stopped working out consistently, I was going out more, making food choices that weren't in line with what my body needs to be at its best, and drinking more. And before I knew it, it was the holidays and I gained weight back.
And I have been quiet, because I've been so ashamed. And there isn't much more to say about that.
BUT... the bright side is this.
1. I'm still at a lower weight at the beginning of 2012 than I was at the beginning of 2011.
2. I just started a 15 day standard reboot program to help cleanse out all the crap I've been eating the last few months. No coffee, no booze, no sugar, no grains, no meat even. JUST fruits and veggies (eating and juicing).
3. I just started a 6 week body transformation contest through my bootcamp. It has great rewards and a monetary consequence if I don't see it through so it keeps me accountable. It also comes with a Paleo Whole30 diet so when my juice cleanse is over, I'll start on the Paleo Whole30 to wrap up the last 29 days of the contest.
4. I'm working with a trained therapist that specializes in addictive thinking and compulsive behavior (aka eating).
So I have many tools in my arsenal to keep me on track and to help get my weight loss back in gear.
There it is... my "secret" that's really not so secret and what I have in place to rectify it. I'm feeling good and motivated and glad to be feeling more "cleaned out" and clear. I'm looking forward to seeing where the next few months take me. :-)
This year has been a wild ride. And here is my confession. I lost 60 pounds and gained back 40. All in a year. I can honestly say I've never gained or lost that much so fast. After my 35 pound HCG loss, something someone said triggered me and I went somewhere in my head and with my diet/eating that I hadn't been in many years. And I just kept going. I stopped working out consistently, I was going out more, making food choices that weren't in line with what my body needs to be at its best, and drinking more. And before I knew it, it was the holidays and I gained weight back.
And I have been quiet, because I've been so ashamed. And there isn't much more to say about that.
BUT... the bright side is this.
1. I'm still at a lower weight at the beginning of 2012 than I was at the beginning of 2011.
2. I just started a 15 day standard reboot program to help cleanse out all the crap I've been eating the last few months. No coffee, no booze, no sugar, no grains, no meat even. JUST fruits and veggies (eating and juicing).
3. I just started a 6 week body transformation contest through my bootcamp. It has great rewards and a monetary consequence if I don't see it through so it keeps me accountable. It also comes with a Paleo Whole30 diet so when my juice cleanse is over, I'll start on the Paleo Whole30 to wrap up the last 29 days of the contest.
4. I'm working with a trained therapist that specializes in addictive thinking and compulsive behavior (aka eating).
So I have many tools in my arsenal to keep me on track and to help get my weight loss back in gear.
There it is... my "secret" that's really not so secret and what I have in place to rectify it. I'm feeling good and motivated and glad to be feeling more "cleaned out" and clear. I'm looking forward to seeing where the next few months take me. :-)
Friday, July 29, 2011
The end of the beginning
The 6 weeks Dr supervised diet has ended. My calories are increased. I get to eat cheese (in moderation), broccoli, olive oil, balsamic vinegar, berries, peaches, bananas, turkey, salmon.... wonderful wonderful treats after so long of eating the same 20 things for 6 weeks. I lost 30 pounds... it was wonderfully successful and just the beginning. I am officially 80 pounds from my very heaviest (granted, that was long ago, but still)! I have about another 60-80 pounds left to lose but I am feeling so upbeat and positive. I feel hopeful that, with this significant of a weight loss and being here for the first time in so long, that I will continue this journey and lose the weight for the last time.
Not only have I busted my plateau, I have also started to do work around my relationship with food. I continue to read and educate myself on nutrition and food science/psychology which is fascinating. And I started back to my boot camp work out this week as well. It's already been such a journey and I know I have a long journey ahead, but I'm ready. And excited. I'm loving this new me and can't wait to see where the road ahead takes me.
Here are some progress photos. the first was at my 26th birthday (8/2005). I was over 300 pounds. The second is at the end of last year (12/2010) and then one from just yesterday (7/2011). I expect more to come! Thank you, friends, for your continued support!
Not only have I busted my plateau, I have also started to do work around my relationship with food. I continue to read and educate myself on nutrition and food science/psychology which is fascinating. And I started back to my boot camp work out this week as well. It's already been such a journey and I know I have a long journey ahead, but I'm ready. And excited. I'm loving this new me and can't wait to see where the road ahead takes me.
Here are some progress photos. the first was at my 26th birthday (8/2005). I was over 300 pounds. The second is at the end of last year (12/2010) and then one from just yesterday (7/2011). I expect more to come! Thank you, friends, for your continued support!
Monday, July 18, 2011
Someday I'll look back at this and laugh...
That's what I tell myself. Just like any other trial or tribulation, there are lessons to be learned in all things. Growth potential at every turn. Someday I'll have a wonderfully healthy relationship with food and my body and I will think back and say "oh, ha ha ha, I can't believe I ever felt that way! Oh, silly me!"
At least, that's what I'm praying for. Right now I'm nearing the end of a 6 week, doctor supervised low calorie diet that has had it's ups and downs. It's been remarkably effective to finally get me over the hump of a months long plateau, but as I close on my last turn and can see the end of this phase only 7 1/2 days ahead, I find myself struggling in a way I can't remember every struggling like before. This weekend, I spent every waking moment fantasizing about food. I held a 2 oz chunk of fromage in my hand and thought to myself "if I could only eat this, I know I would feel better" which was shocking to me. On one hand, kudos to me for being so mindful and aware of my actual thought process but wow... how many times have I gone to eat something in the past for sole purpose of comforting an uncomfortable feeling? Millions I would assume.
I didn't eat the cheese. I'm too close to the end of this to give up now. But I'm hanging on by a thread and my teeth are clenched. I'm so tired of everything I put in my mouth, some days I choose to barely eat anything at all b/c it all tastes like shit so I just drink more water instead. I may never have ground beef, lettuce or asparagus ever again after this. My weight loss has gone from about 6 lbs a week to barely 2 and I don't even really care (okay, I do)... I am just getting through each day the best I can without jumping from a bridge. I literally feel like I'm crawling out of my skin. Being me feels SO intensely uncomfortable right now. And I don't know what to do because I've certainly had a rough go of things from time to time, but never like this. I have never felt like this before. It feels very badly.
So I buck up and try to spend the least amount of time on the pity pot if I can help it and reach, minute to minute, for when I can eat breakfast again. And eggs. And turkey meat. And broccoli (oh how I miss broccoli!). And I'm sure once I have normal calories, can work out and can add healthy fats added back into my diet, I'll be a happy camper and I can look back at this struggle and say "but you did it. And you did it amazingly well." Hopefully shortly thereafter the looking back and laughing thing will happen, too.
At least, that's what I'm praying for. Right now I'm nearing the end of a 6 week, doctor supervised low calorie diet that has had it's ups and downs. It's been remarkably effective to finally get me over the hump of a months long plateau, but as I close on my last turn and can see the end of this phase only 7 1/2 days ahead, I find myself struggling in a way I can't remember every struggling like before. This weekend, I spent every waking moment fantasizing about food. I held a 2 oz chunk of fromage in my hand and thought to myself "if I could only eat this, I know I would feel better" which was shocking to me. On one hand, kudos to me for being so mindful and aware of my actual thought process but wow... how many times have I gone to eat something in the past for sole purpose of comforting an uncomfortable feeling? Millions I would assume.
I didn't eat the cheese. I'm too close to the end of this to give up now. But I'm hanging on by a thread and my teeth are clenched. I'm so tired of everything I put in my mouth, some days I choose to barely eat anything at all b/c it all tastes like shit so I just drink more water instead. I may never have ground beef, lettuce or asparagus ever again after this. My weight loss has gone from about 6 lbs a week to barely 2 and I don't even really care (okay, I do)... I am just getting through each day the best I can without jumping from a bridge. I literally feel like I'm crawling out of my skin. Being me feels SO intensely uncomfortable right now. And I don't know what to do because I've certainly had a rough go of things from time to time, but never like this. I have never felt like this before. It feels very badly.
So I buck up and try to spend the least amount of time on the pity pot if I can help it and reach, minute to minute, for when I can eat breakfast again. And eggs. And turkey meat. And broccoli (oh how I miss broccoli!). And I'm sure once I have normal calories, can work out and can add healthy fats added back into my diet, I'll be a happy camper and I can look back at this struggle and say "but you did it. And you did it amazingly well." Hopefully shortly thereafter the looking back and laughing thing will happen, too.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Newer version of oneself
I am about to undergo a short term, calorie restricted (and doctor supervised) diet to help jump start my weight loss which has been sluggish at best the last 9 months. In facing half the summer ahead with no social eating and specific calorie restrictions, I clench my fists, grit my teeth and square my shoulders for the challenges that lay ahead. I am committed and determined. Not that I haven't been before, but it's all too easy to have that glass of wine, or that bite of cheese or to order a sandwich instead of a salad when dining out. If I want to be successful, in the upcoming months, those choices won't be options for me.
And when faced with finally going below where I'm at, which is already smaller than I've been in many years... I have been pondering deeply the outcomes of losing weight other than the weight loss itself. How will I be different? WILL I be different? How will I relate to myself and others? Will my friends and family support me? Especially the ones who are plus sized as well... will they be happy for me if I reach my goals or will they be resentful? When my relationship with food changes, will my relationships with them have to change too? What do you do to socialize with someone if you're not going out for cocktails or coffee or a meal? (This is an easier question to answer in the summer when the weather is nice).
These are all things I am thinking about these days. I want my outer self to reflect who I feel my inner self is. But change is hard. And scary. And all I can do is my very best and... take things one day at a time.
Ready....
Set...
GO!!!
And when faced with finally going below where I'm at, which is already smaller than I've been in many years... I have been pondering deeply the outcomes of losing weight other than the weight loss itself. How will I be different? WILL I be different? How will I relate to myself and others? Will my friends and family support me? Especially the ones who are plus sized as well... will they be happy for me if I reach my goals or will they be resentful? When my relationship with food changes, will my relationships with them have to change too? What do you do to socialize with someone if you're not going out for cocktails or coffee or a meal? (This is an easier question to answer in the summer when the weather is nice).
These are all things I am thinking about these days. I want my outer self to reflect who I feel my inner self is. But change is hard. And scary. And all I can do is my very best and... take things one day at a time.
Ready....
Set...
GO!!!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Something is happening
In the last two months, I've done my best to incorporate a new and very restricted diet into my life. I've been okay without dairy for the most part, but not having fruit related products or sugars within eight hours of each other has proved complicated to always remember. And the no gluten / wheat thing straight up sucks. But... something is working. I've lost 10 lbs and a few inches although I will admit to a plateau as of now.
But what was amazing, was when I went to see my ND for updated blood work, the extreme differences in how my blood cells looked 2 months ago and how it looks now. I still have a ways to go to be my healthiest self and my liver is still being tricky along with my gall bladder, but things ARE improving, which is WONDERFUL!
My challenge right now is exercise. I'm in week three of no boot camp which has me feeling lazy and depressed. I have a bum shoulder and it's just not feeling better. I have been so busy at work that I haven't had time to work out during the day so I haven't done anything. I HAVE to figure something out. Either go back to boot camp next week and keep things modified or hit the gym. Or both so I'm getting the intensity I've been used to.
Now that my body is processing better, I want to see the results I deserve. It always feels like there is an obstacle. But I will persevere. I have worked way too darn hard not to.
On an interesting note, I was off plan while my boyfriend and I were in Bend this weekend and I noticed that I was sick sick sick from milk, cottage cheese and red wine! I could drink white wine okay and cheese didn't bother me much, but I thought that was interesting. And since we didn't really do many veggies this weekend, I was sooooo tired after every meal. Beer, wine, gluten, cheese.... I was very sleepy. Part of the benefit of being OFF plan every now and then is that I don't like the way it makes me feel so I can't wait to get a huge salad in front of me with veggies and beets and chicken breast and oil and vinegar and a touch of pepper. Yummm!
I continue to monitor the changes my body is going through, inside and out, and I just have to get the momentum to jump back into bootcamp and try to take it easy on my injured shoulder.
But what was amazing, was when I went to see my ND for updated blood work, the extreme differences in how my blood cells looked 2 months ago and how it looks now. I still have a ways to go to be my healthiest self and my liver is still being tricky along with my gall bladder, but things ARE improving, which is WONDERFUL!
My challenge right now is exercise. I'm in week three of no boot camp which has me feeling lazy and depressed. I have a bum shoulder and it's just not feeling better. I have been so busy at work that I haven't had time to work out during the day so I haven't done anything. I HAVE to figure something out. Either go back to boot camp next week and keep things modified or hit the gym. Or both so I'm getting the intensity I've been used to.
Now that my body is processing better, I want to see the results I deserve. It always feels like there is an obstacle. But I will persevere. I have worked way too darn hard not to.
On an interesting note, I was off plan while my boyfriend and I were in Bend this weekend and I noticed that I was sick sick sick from milk, cottage cheese and red wine! I could drink white wine okay and cheese didn't bother me much, but I thought that was interesting. And since we didn't really do many veggies this weekend, I was sooooo tired after every meal. Beer, wine, gluten, cheese.... I was very sleepy. Part of the benefit of being OFF plan every now and then is that I don't like the way it makes me feel so I can't wait to get a huge salad in front of me with veggies and beets and chicken breast and oil and vinegar and a touch of pepper. Yummm!
I continue to monitor the changes my body is going through, inside and out, and I just have to get the momentum to jump back into bootcamp and try to take it easy on my injured shoulder.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
La Resistance no longer!
My body has been resisting me inexplicably for months. I have nurtured it through regular exercise, whole and healthy foods and rests as needed. I have given it all I could provide and still it held firm behind enemy lines, menacingly preventing me from getting closer to my goals. "Viva La Resistance" it said!
And now, I have found the secret and it's begun it's retreat. Or, should I say, it's not being markedly stubborn, but rather working WITH me toward my goals versus against me.
I've been in a state of chronic frustration for months at how hard I'd been working at dropping weight and not seeing the results I expected. Is it reasonable to expect a 2 pound loss every week? No... but expecting more than 2 pounds a month is not out of the realm of possibility. When that wasn't happening for months on end, I finally went to a new ND I met at a lecture on cleansing. As I posted in my last blog, I learned SO much about my body and how it processed certain things! I was very sad to see dairy go away, along with foods you commonly take for granted, such as ketchup, wine, beer, pasta sauce, etc. (because of the fruit/sugar combo). The ND insisted I would feel so good I wouldn't really miss it. And she's right.
Here is what I've been experiencing since starting my new eating regime. I have constant energy throughout the day. No dips in the afternoon. No dips after meals. When it's time to go to bed, I am tired and sleep well. I feel alert and my mood feels very stabilized. When I have eaten dairy or fruit/sugar, I can feel the difference. I'm sluggish, tired and in the case of eating none of those, but probably having some MSG yesterday, I was literally quite ill... instant headache, nauseous and dizzy. It NEVER ceases to boggle my mind what your body will tell you when you're listening.
I am in a size pant I haven't work in probably 9 years. I've lost 9 pounds in the last month and am the lowest I've been on the scale now (finally) in probably 4 years (and even then, I just touched on this number and then returned to about 5 pounds heavier where I stayed for a long time). I feel amazing and I'm FINALLY seeing results which keeps me motivated. I've stopped counting calories or points and am just eating lean proteins, whole grains (no wheat or gluten either) and fresh fruit and veggies. I've discovered coconut milk ice cream which is well worth the extra expense it costs to get a product with only a handful of ingredients. I'm thrilled and can't wait to see how things continue to progress.
I am still maneuvering around eating out, socializing with food and certain genres of food (how do you eat Italian or Mexican if you don't eat cheese or flour?) but I'm making adjustments as I go.
It's true what they say... Nothing tastes as good as Thin feels. :)
And now, I have found the secret and it's begun it's retreat. Or, should I say, it's not being markedly stubborn, but rather working WITH me toward my goals versus against me.
I've been in a state of chronic frustration for months at how hard I'd been working at dropping weight and not seeing the results I expected. Is it reasonable to expect a 2 pound loss every week? No... but expecting more than 2 pounds a month is not out of the realm of possibility. When that wasn't happening for months on end, I finally went to a new ND I met at a lecture on cleansing. As I posted in my last blog, I learned SO much about my body and how it processed certain things! I was very sad to see dairy go away, along with foods you commonly take for granted, such as ketchup, wine, beer, pasta sauce, etc. (because of the fruit/sugar combo). The ND insisted I would feel so good I wouldn't really miss it. And she's right.
Here is what I've been experiencing since starting my new eating regime. I have constant energy throughout the day. No dips in the afternoon. No dips after meals. When it's time to go to bed, I am tired and sleep well. I feel alert and my mood feels very stabilized. When I have eaten dairy or fruit/sugar, I can feel the difference. I'm sluggish, tired and in the case of eating none of those, but probably having some MSG yesterday, I was literally quite ill... instant headache, nauseous and dizzy. It NEVER ceases to boggle my mind what your body will tell you when you're listening.
I am in a size pant I haven't work in probably 9 years. I've lost 9 pounds in the last month and am the lowest I've been on the scale now (finally) in probably 4 years (and even then, I just touched on this number and then returned to about 5 pounds heavier where I stayed for a long time). I feel amazing and I'm FINALLY seeing results which keeps me motivated. I've stopped counting calories or points and am just eating lean proteins, whole grains (no wheat or gluten either) and fresh fruit and veggies. I've discovered coconut milk ice cream which is well worth the extra expense it costs to get a product with only a handful of ingredients. I'm thrilled and can't wait to see how things continue to progress.
I am still maneuvering around eating out, socializing with food and certain genres of food (how do you eat Italian or Mexican if you don't eat cheese or flour?) but I'm making adjustments as I go.
It's true what they say... Nothing tastes as good as Thin feels. :)
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